Being Disconnected from God

I was outside a moment ago and heard God tell me I need to write in my blog right now, before I put it off and forget to do it.

This might be more stream of consciousness writing than it is properly formatted, but I want to get my thoughts down.

One thing I've really discovered in the last couple of weeks is when you're disconnected from God, the devil is powerful.  He tempts you with things that seem fun and exciting and earthly pleasures that most humans (by themselves) wouldn't deny.  I'm not going to lie, they are "fun", but they're so wrong on many levels and they destroy lives.

Mind altering substances and sex can ruin lives.  It does ruin lives.  Think about how many people are in prison/jail because of using those substances and making poor decisions?  I've been there many times (unfortunately) and it's no place a person should be.  I'd guess that's 75% of incarcerated people.

Besides getting in trouble with the law, how many jobs have been lost?  Families fell apart?  Bankruptcy and financial ruin?

Most importantly, how many suicides/accidents could have been prevented?

I could (and will at some point) go into all the trouble it's caused me, but this post is greater than just my struggles.  I'm writing so I think about how I can help come up with a way to help people find Christianity.  How do we help people who made wrong decisions in the past get their life back on track?  There has to be work on the part of each individual, but we have to be willing to help too. 

I've seen far to much hopelessness and despair on the streets and in jail and homeless shelters.  I've seen people who genuinely want to change and be different, but get discouraged because they can't see light - a way out.

I get it.  Far more than most people ever will (thank God others won't get it on my level) and I need to help find a solution.  Far to many "lost" lives and people are happening because of their lack of connection with God.

I adamantly believe I was put on this earth to help, lead and inspire people.  I need to figure out what specific way that is, so I can start doing it effectively.  It will be doing God and my fellow humans a disservice if I succumb to my mental defects and sickness and don't rise up out of this situation to help others.  I'll need a lot of help from a lot of other people to make huge changes, but I have to BE BIG - say big prayers, dream big dreams, set big goals and most importantly, be blessed and know that God can accomplish anything.  I want to use the gifts he's given me to have him work through me to make a BIG difference.